God Only Knows

((Inspired by late night music. This is not about a romantic relationship.))

GOD ONLY KNOWS

it's a long night

holding onto light blending with the morning
don't want to close my eyes
don't want the dark to pull me in too far

I've come too far to come so close
to something God only knows
running circles through trees of lies
how much do I... really know
how much do I know?

if I bite my tongue
will I save myself or run out of air?
if I lose a lung
does it even matter, will I even care?

I've come too far to come so close

to something God only knows

running circles through trees of lies

how much do I... really know

how much do I know?

ooh no, I won't give up the fight

what is there to lose?

ooh I, can't pretend it's alright

so don't act like you've got no clue

don't want to close my eyes

don't want the dark to pull me in too far

I've come too far to come so close

to something God only knows

...

how much do I know?

how much am I ready to know?

Always, Lainey

©2012 all rights reserved.

Life As I Know It

Life As I Know It

There comes a moment in our lives when we stop in mid-step and take a look at where we are. Although we haven't quite paid particular attention to the details that led us here, we have arrived at a place where we're meant to be; whether we realize it or not it adds to the volumes of stories, memories, and things in life that money can't buy.  I am eternally grateful to have the family and friends I have.  Just because I don't exactly know where I'm going from here does not mean I'm lost.  No one really knows.  With that, I have peace of mind while enjoying this moment in life that was meant to be noticed.   :)

...life as I know it...

(yet another song for self-therapy)

walk on the edge, along the silver lining
you never closed your eyes
you looked down against the warnings
and for that grew bigger in size


perspectives never looked so rich 
if only we knew this a million years ago
walking uphill, against the current
learning things they'll never know


life as i know it is only mine
no matter what happens
i control my mind
life as i know it is full of hope
and through disappointments
i know there's still hope
life as i know it revolves around love
passion, adventure, faith, and peace
it's the things we're all made of


carefree of the opinions of the onlookers
when nothing is even worth 2 cents
when nothing they say even makes sense


leave our comfort zones
make a stranger smile
do little things 
 fight for green peace
surprise yourself
take advice from someone else


life as i know it is full of hope
and through disappointments
i know, there's still hope


walk on the edge, of the silver lining
and you'll never get left behind
you'll be
right where you're supposed to be
<3

Always, Lainey

©2012 all rights reserved.

forbidden fruit

with california's frost just around the block

maybe it's nothing more than an autumn's gloss

and as i cross the street with my unpredictability

it warms me to think i'm on the brink of something

there's lots of trees in bloom with forbidden fruit

and oooh it's simply tempting us with the truth

so sweet with my heart beat dripping down my sleeve

i can't see anything but him in front of me



ooh i should recognize the signs
as i can't deny his irresistibility

completely submitting to those eyes
 as the storms come and go

this is the one i won't let go of

ooooh it's love

all the cliches floating 'round my head

replaying over and over again but this time it's meant

he came without a warning out of nowhere

i was impatiently unexpecting this and oooh it's not fair

oooh i should recognize the signs
as i can't deny his irresistibility

completely submitting to his eyes
as the storms come and go

this is the one i won't let go of

ooooh it's love

i'm in trouble now with how sweet it could be

i didn't know better please don't you blame me

and as i took a bite straight from that forbidden fruit

that's when i knew that all i want is you

...

so sweet with my heart beat dripping down my sleeve

i can't see anything but you with me

and as the storms come and go

this is the one i won't let go of

ooooh it's love



LOVE Always, Lainey

©2011 all rights reserved.

RockTober

Autumn leaves swirl down the sidewalk, as though they’re waltzing to the silent symphony of October’s song.  The only ones lucky enough to hear it are the ones lucky enough to stop for a moment from their day to day hustle to attend to all that really surrounds them.  The simplest of truths are all around us all the time.  The sky is painted acrylic grey.  Not the kind of depressing grey that keeps everyone indoors, but the intriguing kind of grey that sparks imagination for the upcoming mornings, days, evenings, and nights.  California autumn may not be as spectacular as other places with our beaches, palm trees, and 365 day/year sunshine, but it holds its own sentiment and beautiful changes unique to other seasons here. 

This time of year reminds me it’s a time for change.  With the drastic change in weather and fashion, it not only has an external effect but the weather also affects me like an internal metronome; as our tempo (or pace) subconsciously (or consciously) change each day.  When it seems as though most are slowing down, unused to the chills now infiltrating the air; I speed up because the crisp air is invigorating.  With this newfound energy I’ve been so desperately needing, I am now inspired and in pursuit of allowing myself to let October’s song to guide me anywhere the wind blows.  Whether it’s writing more, getting out more, reading more, or composing more.  Who knows what the next day will bring… all I know is what I can bring with me as these days go by. 

Song:  medium paced guitar strumming accompanied by a cello-bass, simple piano, with guitar hits for percussion.  Two tracks for vocals for overlapping during chorus.

More To This

there's shadow in the moonlight

and a spark from the tail pipe

there's a light in the deepest of dark

a dreamer's dream on the farthest star

there's wind blowing through the leaves

and a mountain covered in trees

still believe that there's more to this

when there always is

you can find hope that's eloped

when you thought it was gone

you can find faith that's erased

when you thought it didn't belong

answers fill the silence in question

when reason overpowers suggestion

these dark roads go where no one knows

so drive and we'll go where there's more to this

when there always is

There's wind blowing through the leaves

and a mountain covered in trees

still believe that there's more to this

when there always is

you can find hope that's eloped

when you thought it was gone

you can find faith that's erased

when you thought it didn't belong

there's light in the dark

and hearts that've been marked

there's bliss in knowledge

and love from above

just know there's more to this

Always, Lainey

©2011 all rights reserved.

all at once

all at once

i'm taken over

unprepared

uncompared

drunk with love

completely sober

stare past the stars

in the hearts of us all

as we fall against gravity

uplifting us past where our eyes can see

strange, it's a comfort unknown

as we go down these unmarked roads

...

do you know the way

to a place

an escape

where we can make anything possible

as we're guided as we drift away

all at once

i'm exactly

where i need to be

in your arms

completely disarmed

stare past the stars

in the hearts of us all

as we fall against gravity

uplifting us past where our eyes can see

strange, it's a comfort unknown

as we go down these unmarked roads

i'm afraid i've become

someone i didn't think

was safe and so out of control, simultaneously

i see, basically

you're just like me

all at once

all the meanings changed

when the one thing constant

is us, framed in constellations

strange, it's a comfort unknown

as we go down these unmarked roads

 Love Always, Lainey

©2011 all rights reserved.

what we know

wash our hands clean once again

so they'll blend in

watch the direction of all the pointing fingers

and yet we still see it in our reflection

we submit to all the green, all the envy

and let it take the best part of what we could be

we bleed under our sleeve of all that we feel

and leave behind what we know is real

what we know is real

...

this hourglass of tricksand

continues to fall

it slips through our hands

and leaves nothing at all

as jokes and time fly over our heads

we restlessly lay awake in our beds

in the beds we've made

we submit to all the green, all the envy

and let it take the best part of what we could be

we bleed under our sleeve of all that we feel

and leave behind what we know is real

what we know is real

when the ground shakes

we think we stand still

unable to make

sense until

until we let ourselves fall....

we submit to the greed

we submit to conceit

bleed under our sleeve

and leave behind

what we know is real...

what we know is

real

Always,

Lainey

©2011 all rights reserved.

modern life

There's an old wooden table

dated by the rings left by glasses

fake orchids add the perfect touch

for these conversations through the cable

we talk for hours with our hands

through letters on a modern screen

our emotions have been replaced just so

someone else can understand

we're so close but so far away

separated by square inches of a room

since when did we become so consumed

in these artifical friends everyday?

and who's to say that i'm immune

as I put my thoughts in cyberspace?

and who's to say that you aren't too

when these words have got to you this way?

we're subjected to the art of reason

but we fail to question anything that contradicts

yet we're living hypocritics

when we follow what's popular to believe in

history is made when we stand up for change

or do we give in to these devices?

maybe together both worlds are paradise

if we all knew how to use it the right way

as i stare off the screen and back to the room

my flowers are still in bloom

everything is still in it's place

as we're creating these cyber tombs

Always, Lainey

©2011 all rights reserved.