RockTober

Autumn leaves swirl down the sidewalk, as though they’re waltzing to the silent symphony of October’s song.  The only ones lucky enough to hear it are the ones lucky enough to stop for a moment from their day to day hustle to attend to all that really surrounds them.  The simplest of truths are all around us all the time.  The sky is painted acrylic grey.  Not the kind of depressing grey that keeps everyone indoors, but the intriguing kind of grey that sparks imagination for the upcoming mornings, days, evenings, and nights.  California autumn may not be as spectacular as other places with our beaches, palm trees, and 365 day/year sunshine, but it holds its own sentiment and beautiful changes unique to other seasons here. 

This time of year reminds me it’s a time for change.  With the drastic change in weather and fashion, it not only has an external effect but the weather also affects me like an internal metronome; as our tempo (or pace) subconsciously (or consciously) change each day.  When it seems as though most are slowing down, unused to the chills now infiltrating the air; I speed up because the crisp air is invigorating.  With this newfound energy I’ve been so desperately needing, I am now inspired and in pursuit of allowing myself to let October’s song to guide me anywhere the wind blows.  Whether it’s writing more, getting out more, reading more, or composing more.  Who knows what the next day will bring… all I know is what I can bring with me as these days go by. 

Song:  medium paced guitar strumming accompanied by a cello-bass, simple piano, with guitar hits for percussion.  Two tracks for vocals for overlapping during chorus.

More To This

there's shadow in the moonlight

and a spark from the tail pipe

there's a light in the deepest of dark

a dreamer's dream on the farthest star

there's wind blowing through the leaves

and a mountain covered in trees

still believe that there's more to this

when there always is

you can find hope that's eloped

when you thought it was gone

you can find faith that's erased

when you thought it didn't belong

answers fill the silence in question

when reason overpowers suggestion

these dark roads go where no one knows

so drive and we'll go where there's more to this

when there always is

There's wind blowing through the leaves

and a mountain covered in trees

still believe that there's more to this

when there always is

you can find hope that's eloped

when you thought it was gone

you can find faith that's erased

when you thought it didn't belong

there's light in the dark

and hearts that've been marked

there's bliss in knowledge

and love from above

just know there's more to this

Always, Lainey

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all at once

all at once

i'm taken over

unprepared

uncompared

drunk with love

completely sober

stare past the stars

in the hearts of us all

as we fall against gravity

uplifting us past where our eyes can see

strange, it's a comfort unknown

as we go down these unmarked roads

...

do you know the way

to a place

an escape

where we can make anything possible

as we're guided as we drift away

all at once

i'm exactly

where i need to be

in your arms

completely disarmed

stare past the stars

in the hearts of us all

as we fall against gravity

uplifting us past where our eyes can see

strange, it's a comfort unknown

as we go down these unmarked roads

i'm afraid i've become

someone i didn't think

was safe and so out of control, simultaneously

i see, basically

you're just like me

all at once

all the meanings changed

when the one thing constant

is us, framed in constellations

strange, it's a comfort unknown

as we go down these unmarked roads

 Love Always, Lainey

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what we know

wash our hands clean once again

so they'll blend in

watch the direction of all the pointing fingers

and yet we still see it in our reflection

we submit to all the green, all the envy

and let it take the best part of what we could be

we bleed under our sleeve of all that we feel

and leave behind what we know is real

what we know is real

...

this hourglass of tricksand

continues to fall

it slips through our hands

and leaves nothing at all

as jokes and time fly over our heads

we restlessly lay awake in our beds

in the beds we've made

we submit to all the green, all the envy

and let it take the best part of what we could be

we bleed under our sleeve of all that we feel

and leave behind what we know is real

what we know is real

when the ground shakes

we think we stand still

unable to make

sense until

until we let ourselves fall....

we submit to the greed

we submit to conceit

bleed under our sleeve

and leave behind

what we know is real...

what we know is

real

Always,

Lainey

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modern life

There's an old wooden table

dated by the rings left by glasses

fake orchids add the perfect touch

for these conversations through the cable

we talk for hours with our hands

through letters on a modern screen

our emotions have been replaced just so

someone else can understand

we're so close but so far away

separated by square inches of a room

since when did we become so consumed

in these artifical friends everyday?

and who's to say that i'm immune

as I put my thoughts in cyberspace?

and who's to say that you aren't too

when these words have got to you this way?

we're subjected to the art of reason

but we fail to question anything that contradicts

yet we're living hypocritics

when we follow what's popular to believe in

history is made when we stand up for change

or do we give in to these devices?

maybe together both worlds are paradise

if we all knew how to use it the right way

as i stare off the screen and back to the room

my flowers are still in bloom

everything is still in it's place

as we're creating these cyber tombs

Always, Lainey

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painted skies

It's getting colder now

and the skies are turning gray

it's all painted in the clouds

like our dreams in other shades

time tells us nothing

if we've stood in one place

age tells us nothing

if there was nothing for us to chase

so let me bring you far away

far away from the most distant memory

let me bring you far away

where life isn't just a dream

wake up to a new embrace

with a new set of eyes

and a permanent smile on your face

no longer painted on for disguise

waste nothing but the unnecessary

cause there's value in it all

don't let it go sedentary

or they'll hide behind your wall

use the best of you in all you do

even when the weather wears you down

show the world they've underestimated you

and wear your true self's crown

it's getting colder now

and the skies are beginning to dawn

it's all painted in the clouds

so now go above and beyond

Always, Lainey

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Build

one night

it was dark

the only light inside was for saving

held on

for dear life

and imagined a safe haven

my hands

helped me crawl

as all the walls were caving in

but through the dust that rose

i began to close but i didn't know, didn't know

as i tip toed through broken cement

i saw your silhouette

cause you guided me to you

pushed back debris

watched me climb

as the stones came loose

so i tried and i climbed

and i climbed and i tried

til i knew

i knew

through time

lots of patience

and sleepless nights

i could hear

silence resonate

from the corners of my brain

 so i began to close but i didn't know, didn't know

as i tip toed through broken cement

i saw your silhouette

cause you guided me to you

pushed back debris

watched me climb

as the stones came loose

so i tried and i climbed

and i climbed and i tried

til i knew

i knew

i knew something had to change

and everytime you said my name

i knew i wasn't alone

you made me so much better

and i feel it everytime we're together

cause you guided me to you

pushed back debris

watched me climb

as the stones came loose

so i tried and i climbed

and i climbed and i tried

til i knew

i knew

one night

it was dark

the only light inside was for you

and now

i built a brand new place

somewhere i can stay with you

Always, Lainey

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the truth

paper thin an airplane flew

over a tower of cards

toppling over after the wind blew

and behind the glass of this home

i sensed it coming from afar

came all this way just to throw some stones

calendars later it was time

when it was only saved in a photo

so i let it go and it was gone from my mind

i didn't run but i left

wouldn't forget but went with the rising sun

didn't look back, looked ahead

and instead of feeling free

 i still hear you're chasing me

i hear footsteps coming closer together

giving me anxiety

i almost forgot how you were clever

never in a million years

did i think

you would be stuck in those years

wear your pride like a trophy

 so undercover

when we all know what you're secretly hoping

i didn't run but i left

wouldn't forget but went with the rising sun

didn't look back, looked ahead

and instead of feeling free

 i still hear you're chasing me

get your army of ignorance to speak up

repeating things like a parrot on your shoulder

the more crackers you feed the more you get bolder

as the lies grew so did your head

fed your ego with every word you said

when there's a side to you that they'll never know

i hope they'll never know

i didn't run but i left

wouldn't forget but went with the rising sun

didn't look back, looked ahead

and instead of feeling free

 i still hear you're chasing me

i didn't run but i left

wouldn't forget but went with the rising sun

didn't look back, looked ahead

and instead of feeling free

 i still hear you're chasing me

i'm sorry

i'm sorry you've become so good at story telling

you really do believe it

i don't know what else to do

when ignoring it and taking the hits

still didn't stop you

so i give you permission to do what you have to do

cause at least I know the truth

Always, Lainey

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