ready or not

All the loaded questions

well the answers I didn't know them

all I could do was hold them in my thoughts

close my eyes and hope you forgot

I wasn't ready 

for you to see right through me

Taken back and holding back

well it leaves me cold.. out of whack

 please don't look at me right now

can't take my eyes off the ground

There's a part of me you already have

hold me close don't give it back

I don't know what this is

but I feel it on your lips

I wasn't ready 

for you to see right through me

Taken back and holding back

well it leaves me cold.. out of whack

 please don't look at me right now

can't take my eyes off the ground

I'm too busy perfecting myself

and losing myself in someone else

sometimes it's bittersweet

but it's even better that you found me

yeah

and I remember why I built my walls

but when you're around somehow they fall

and all I know is how it feels when you're around

and all I can think about is now

yeah

 I wasn't ready 

I wasn't ready

for you to see right through me

yeah

for you to see right through me

Always, Lainey

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Blur

Blur the line that keeps me from seeing what's right 

 what's right in front of me

I walk along side my ghost of night

I'm the only one left deceived

Burn the edges of my mind

the place that keeps me up at night

lead the way to a new paradise

as I drift away to the me I kinda like

ooooh, I can't lie I'm a little unsure

ooooh, I can't lie it's all a blur

how did I get here?

If at all I could fall in his arms and his eyes

I would do it so fast

can't hear past my smile to hear me cry

how I want to make this last

Burn the edges of my mind

the place that keeps me up at night

lead the way to a new paradise

as I drift away to the me I kinda like

ooooh, I can't lie I'm a little unsure

ooooh, I can't lie it's all a blur

ooooh, I can't lie I'm a little unsure

ooooh, I can't lie it's all a blur

ooooh, can't deny how I want you now

...I just need you now

Blur the line that keeps me from seeing what's right 

 what's right in front of me

I walk to you, lead me to light

take me to where I need to be

ooooh, where I need to be 

where I need to be

Always, Lainey

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day-scapes

What I love most about music is that it speaks for itself.  Oftentimes, a good instrumental succesfully conveys what words cannot.  Everything is felt and transmitted from the heart to the fingertips and translated through the air... hopelessly, wandering in search of someone or something to connect with.

Today, I am lost amongst all 88 piano keys.  Tomorrow may be between all 20 frets of an acoustic... or the 4 strings for pizzicato.  Who knows? Let your musical curiosity take you to your own special day-scape.  Who says we can't have a vacation everyday?  ;)  Treat yourself and escape in the wake...



Love Always, Lainey

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P.S. join me on my day-scape...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVQflMpgDL4

the beautiful truth

clear the air and lead the way

don't believe in "what if's" or "mistakes"

lay beneath the smiling moon

and see where your thoughts take you

count the stars and breathe the waves

see how many lives your heart can save

spell out sweet nothings in the sand

don't think twice just reach out your hand

challenge yourself each given day

give in to what takes your breath away

with a leap of faith, close your eyes

know the sun will always rise

Let the beauty of the wind freely paint 

across the skies, mountains, and plains

these once abrasions now draw us in

as the beauty seeps down past our skin

There's no point in moving fast or staying in one place

enjoy the view and go at your own pace

there's no comparison to anyone else

all that matters is if you're true to yourself

don't be shy, stare at your face

don't let time tell you your age

love who you are and who you'll be

be the person you'll want to meet

Learn the things you wanted to yesterday

and believe someday is today

wake up to a world brand new

and leave room for the beautiful truth

Always, Lainey

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dandelion wishes

There's a million things to make wishes on: candles, fallen eyelashes, wishbones, shooting stars, etc. However, dandelions are the most fun.  I imagine my every thought holding onto each seed as it's carried away and taken to a magical place full of good fortune and immortal filing systems... good things are bound to happen. 

I believe the cliches.  Everything happens for a reason.  I believe good thoughts make good choices.  If life were easy, it wouldn't be worth living because we wouldn't know what our capabilities are.  We wouldn't know what we could endure or grow into.  They say, "It's easier said than done", so take that as a challenge and show the world it CAN be done.  As stuborn as I am, I have to believe there is much more to life than what we concentrate and focus on daily.  Additionally, life is everything inbetween.  It's what we see, it's what we feel, it's what we do without knowing we do it, it's that immortal filing system we remember subconsciously and dream about.  Disney got it right when Cinderella sings, "A dream is a wish your heart makes".  Life is essentially what we take from its experiences.  Life is precious.  Life is good.

I may not have created my life but I can continue to build it.  I consider myself to be lucky enough to have great family, friends, influences, teachers, and challengers.  My life is beautiful thanks to all who inspire me and help me extract the vision and hope from the dandelion seeds I've received... and my wish for this dandelion seed is to pass it on.  So here you go... make a wish.


Always, Lainey
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grandpa's song

in and out of lucid dreams

i'm still here

looking up at the ceiling

trying to convince myself there's nothing to fear

i felt you hold my hand

as you slept

your hourglass of sand

dripped in slow motion as you peacefully went

i'm not as strong as i should be

as i would like everyone to think

but everything you taught me

brings out the you in me

you bring out the you in me...

let me know you're okay

give us a sign

it's the first day without you awake

there's something missing i can't find

i'm not as strong as i should be

as i would like everyone to think

but everything you taught me

brings out the you in me

you bring out the you in me

you bring out the you in me...

i love you

i miss you

you're the glue that brought us here
i see you
when i look at myself in the mirror

i'm a part of you, grandpa

everything you taught me

brings out the you in me

you brought out the you in me

Always, Lainey
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dare

Lilac wine. Sweet nectar of the rain. It's dark outside, yet there's spice in the air as heat rises off the ground.  Heat waves are visible.  It blurs the image of a stranger walking in our direction.  We're in a strangely familiar place even though no footprint has tainted the ground before.  There is a first for everything.  Life at this point can go in either direction:  through the mystic trails beyond the uncertainty blanketed by night's curtain, or through the circular trails we've become accustomed to that we believe have always kept us safe.  Intrigued by the inner whisper of adventure, we dare leave familiarity.

Always, Lainey

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